Tuesday, November 19, 2013

End of Chapter: So Close

Well, third time's a charm I guess. I found another buyer and it looks like this sale will actually go through. However, this buyer is crazy too and because of the prolonged process at the beginning of the sale, I lost the most perfect rental apartment by hours. I was so angry I couldn't see straight when it happened, mostly because I was feeling sorry for myself and harping on why it feels like nothing can ever go smoothly for me. But also because why does everyone have to be an asshole all the time?

Anyway, school is keeping me pretty occupied but this sale sent my stress level through the roof. Oddly now that the worst has happened and I don't have a place to move but I have a date I have to be out, I'm less stressed. Strange how that happens. Looking forward to the change, holding out hope I will meet some new people, still struggling with the is it fate/am I trying hard enough theory and just trying to be ok with the way my life is going.

Maybe I should move to Japan. Then maybe at least the stigma of being a virgin would subside. But of course I do want to have sex and get married and am not obsessed with my digital life so maybe not. Sigh.

2 comments:

alifelivedalone said...

I hope it goes well for you! Have you thought about spending sometime overseas either after you finish school or on exchange or something? Might be a bit of a fun change!
Vanessa

NHAB said...

NYC real estate sounds crazy! I find it fascinating. Good luck on that front. It's funny how one can stay calm during the worst case scenario, that usually happens to me. Everyone would freak out and I'd be the calm one that can still think clearly. I would love to live in Europe someday, but wouldn't know how to make it happen legally without having to go back to school (which I don't want to do).