Thinking about maybe giving eharmony a try. Despite the many times I've said online dating won't work for me that tiny unsinkable optimist in me is scratching at the inside of my brain. Also despite knowing eharmony is homophobic and probably a number of other despicable things, I can't help but feel like the real life route I'm wishing for just isn't happening. I don't have the highest hopes, but weirdly I have hopes. I don't know. I haven't gotten beyond the start page yet so we'll see. Also, maybe they will reject me anyway. Then I can stop thinking about it being a possibility at least.
